Dear God

Over the  years I came to realize that all things aren’t meant for me

All things aren’t meant  to go my way

Over the years I’ve noticed how I began to take things for granted

I refuse to hold myself back due to other peoples’ judgement

Listening to others instead of myself I began to notice how I lost myself , confidence , integrity especially my smile

I feel as if I lost everything

From the car I drive to the bed I lay in isn’t mine

Both are just material things

I want to be whole again


Make me feel worthy of life

Make me feel like I have a plan

Guided me so I can’t make a wrong turn

And I promise God , I’ll be alright




Bed Time

I can’t go to bed

Knowing that the last voice I don’t hear is yours

It’s like a trap without the noise

Hearing your voice each night is a choice

Like the bells ringing to rejoice

Save Me because I can’t do it alone

Save me
Save me from this place called home
It’s like living all alone
Where your mind becomes your escape and your spirit is gone
Only wishing for God to hurry up and answer the phone
If only your true emotions were shown
It’s like dialing the numbers of the phone and no ones there to even listen to the dial tone
Save me
So I can be on my way to a loving home
And tell God I’ll call him when I need a friend to depend on




Dear Best Friend

“When you find out that your crush has been crushing on you “
I remember my sophomore year of high school when I meet you in medical terminology I never would’ve thought we would build on something that ended up in a friendship. At first we were innocent teenagers with a lot of ego that didn’t seem to match up but, then a spark happened and the next man blew it out.
We continued to stay friends but we both knew we were more than just two friends that hung out when one of us was alone and needed to see a smiling face every now and then. That spark never went away even after we departed from being something to nothing. You always told me that you never stopped loving me. I could never say anything back because once upon a time I loved you until you gave up on me. You gave up on us and the trust we had was so little. I was the insecure one while you were the one trying to show me how secure I was with you. But I was young and In denial I couldn’t view myself with someone like you… now all I can do is look back on what I should have or how it would be with a man like you that I considered a friend . I can’t stop caring or wanting to know how it would be if we decided to take a leap on faith. Truth be told I rather love you from a distance because if we break each other heart we both can’t come from it again.
We use to “ crush on each other “ but now we’re broken apart